Trudy Triumph's Neurogenic Bladder Blog

High School Reunion and Going Forward with a Neurogenic Bladder

DID I HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND!  I traveled out of state to meet up with a group of people who taught me most of what I know, my classmates.  Many were with me from first grade until graduation from high school.  Together we illegally  would sneek off campus to buy candy, screamed at football games, and gossiped about the tiresome adults in our life.  My first crush was there.  So many memories packed into one room.   They  were my partners in life and in crime.  So many of the "girls " looked the same while the "boys"… well lets just say we were lucky to have name with class pictures attached because there was little resemblance.  There was a remembrance board commemorating the classmates that were no longer with us.  It was somber for me remembering my lost friends and wondering who would be gone next time. 

As I looked around the room I saw happy, yet imperfect bodies. There were people dealing with cancer, obesity, perhaps someone was like me and dealing with a neurogenic bladder.  I saw a few canes, yet  I met wisdom, experience, success, pride, in a life well spent.    Best of all I saw satisfaction.  The veineer of the old days was rubbed off and replaced by something better.  We were all happy to enjoy who we were and who we are and contentedness filled the space.

 Just by being with that group of lovely people made me feel young and happy.  The self absorbed, selfish part of me is gone.  It did not matter because I was theirs and they were mine.  It is a unique experience as we all age.  For all of us it is new every day.   Some of our issues are hidden like mine, but some are so ovious to the world.  We humans all experince this life in stages.  It was just fun to be in a room of people who were in the same stage as me!

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Bladder Cancer and the Neurogenic Bladder




Fifty five and older

Frequent bladder infections

Men more than women

Pink rosy urine 

My bladder frequently hurts.  Usually it is most bothersome during and after a bladder infection.   My bladder pain starts to feel better if I carry a jug of water around and just drink and drink.  When I feel a bladder infection coming on I am afraid to take something for the pain because I want a clear idea of what I have and I don't want to mask my symtoms. But when I do take something, I take a medication called Phenazopyridine.  It turns my pee dark orange and will stain the toilet seat if I am not careful,  but it totally does the job.   It does however make me tired so I can only take it a night.   It is suprising to me how advil does nothing for my bladder pain.   You see I am not a doctor or medical professional.   I should have paid attention in my physiology class as an undergraduate, perhaps then I would even have a remote idea, as to why my body does what it does.  

I do know however that a painful bladder is a symtom of bladder cancer and frequent bladder infections can cause it.   Now before I start sounding like a hypchondriac, you need to know that I do not spend my days thinking about bladder cancer.   It is just something I thought I should write about because it happens.  

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Bladder Infections and a Neurogenic Bladder

Many of the topics I write about are just fun and carefree. It is my life and I try to make it light and give an opportunity for others to peek into my silly life. I have been avoiding this topic because to be honest it makes me sad. I get frustrated because no matter how hard I try or how careful I am, I still seem to get bladder infections. Besides the discomfort they are a reminder that I am frail. It is not how I like to see myself. Forget my Pollyanna posts. Having a bladder infection sucks and they crimp my style. Not only do they hurt but I can feel them all over. My husband told me about an article he read about women becoming crazy because of bladder infections. I wonder if he was trying to hint that I needed an attitude check. Last week I could feel one brewing. My problem is I can’t take too many antibiotics. I try to drink lots of water, ingest d-mannose. I keep myself clean…….but no matter how hard I try, they just sometimes happen!

  I still get really mad when I think about my first urologist. His thought was that having bladder infections are normal for people in my condition. He refused to test my urine, since I cath he thought that there is forign bacteria in my urine, so why bother. After I changed urologists I had three bladder infections in a row. Because she wanted a urine sample, before I took the antibiotics we found out that I had a staph infection. She then had me take a low dose antibiotic for twenty days. That regiment did the trick. I was given relief from that discomfort and distraction. What would have happened if I had the former urologist? First of all he would not have me test a urine sample. I would never had known I was fighting a staph infection. But my question to my former uroligist could have been,  WHAT KIND OF BACTERIA? His idea was to white knuckle the pain and in the meantime blow my kidneys out.

  My last bladder infection brought me to my knees. I am finally giving sacral nerve stimulation, consideration.

  Diary of last bladder infection;

 SATURDAY- Went out with friends. Perhaps I got food poisoning because I threw up that night and had diarrhea the next few days. I was far from home. RODEO FOOD!!

SUNDAY- Felt the tightness and urgency of a bladder infection but did not worry about it because my urine was not cloudy.

MONDAY-Drank water all day.

TUESDAY- Took cloudy urine sample into the lab. They told me the preliminary report would be 24 hours and another day for the final report.

WEDNESDAY-THURSDAY- I patiently waited for the lab results. My urine did not seem cloudy yet I did not feel so great. I flew back home and called my doctor’s office to see if the lab results were in. They were not.

 FRIDAY- I was up early 4:30 am. I needed to wait until 8:00 for the doctor’s office to open. I now have a raging bladder infection with cloudy stinky urine. I needed to bring out the guns. I called the doctor’s office two times to see if they had the test results. They did not even have the preliminary report that I was told would be done in 24 hours.  I called the lab myself and begged them to send the report. (I wanted them to feel my pain so they would hurry up.)I was heading out of town for a romantic ocean get away with my husband. I prayed, God help me I do not feel so romantic with this bladder infection. Finally at twelve noon I was in the drug store waiting for my relief. What a week! Not easy. I wonder if Michelle Obama would have had to wait so long!

NEXT WEEK-Took Bacterium for 7 days, sure hope it does the trick.  I need to go out of town.  I will never leave town again without some emergency antibiotics.

  I am now strongly considering Interstim Therapy.  I feel great now but I am afraid to repeat last week!

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Watching the Clock with a Neurogenic Bladder

Regular times for eating and toileting are important to me.   Since I have a neurogenic bladder and bowel I do not have the normal ques or signals.  If I do not pay attention to the clock I get into trouble.  My advice for my kindred spirits is to get a job at a school.  I can not believe how helpful the school year is.  I have it made in the shade.  I go to school and between second and third period I slip into the nurses office to use the restroom.  I do not even need to check the clock since I have my own reminder bell.  Then at the same time each day I I have third lunch.  After fifth period I duck into the nurses office again.  This regular eating and toileting keeps me comfortable and out of trouble.

This summer has thrown me for a loop.  I can't count the number of times I have had stomach aches and finally remembered to pee.  I just love to shop.  I can get so preoccupied with the hunt that I just zone out and ignore my warning signs and not make it to the toilet in time.  Then I need to just go home for a shower .  In many ways summertime is supposed to be spontaneous and free.  I just have a body that misbehaves.   It is kind of like caring for a child.  As a young mother often times I ate when I fed the kids and told them to go to the bathroom because it was time.  They needed a regular schedule just as I do now. 

I know of course how to help this quandary, GET AN ALARM CLOCK.

Automatic Flush and a Neurogenic Bladder

I have flown a couple times this month and I have a new public enemy number one.  The airport toilet flush system has caught me off guard.  The trigger for the flush is set off by the motion of my hand, inside the toilet bowl, while I cath.  When this happens I get an unhealthy dose of toilet water spray, not good for me when I am trying to stay as clean as possible down south.  I will write a note for the airport suggestion box.

To Whom it may Concern,

My life was jeopardized today not by a malfunctioning airplane , bomb or unruly child but by a spray that could just as easily end my life.  Because I self cath to urinate I set off the instant flushing motion .  I am sure women using a tampon do the same thing.  Not sure who set the automatic trigger there, but it is not working for me.

 The sign in the stall telling me the recycled water is used for the flush system certainly does not tempt me to go near the water, but does that mean then that  I am in further danger when I get an unwanted shower?

Please change the location of the motion detector. 

Thank you, Trudy Triumph


Neurogenic Bladder in the Movies

When I was diagnosed with a neurogenic bladder I was so desperate for information that I looked up movies with quadriplegics and those having paraplegia in the lead roles.  My thought was that people with that disability usually have bowel and bladder paralysis as well.  I was so hungry for insight.  I did not know a single person with a neurogenic bladder or bowel that I could strike up a conversation with.  I could not ask my urologist out for lunch and girls talk.  When I first googled neurogenic bladder I had so many questions besides the definitions and terms.  The articles seemed so impersonal.  I just wanted to talk to a friend, but to be honest I was too embarrassed to do so.    I had questions like;

1.  What would happen to my friendships if anyone found out?

2.  Can I keep this part of my life private?

3.  Is there more to me than just this?

4.  Will I turn others off?

5.  Will I make it to the toilet on time?

A lot of time movies have themes and a point to make so started my movie quest.  I began watching movies with the star dealing with paralysis.  As I watched for a part of the story line that touched, personal matters.

Some movie thoughts;

1My Left Foot is a  movie that  made me cry.  The love and compassion by the leads family was profound.   In my opinion it was the most entertaining of the lot.  It just gave me a warm feeling.   It is so good that I put it up with, my favorite movies, Sound of Music and Grand Torino.

2.  Passion Fish is so good because it just has practical advice.  The quad got her man even with the personal challenges.  It was so cool that the toilet issues were discussed; practical advice was given like eating and toileting regularly.   

3.  I thought Avatar threw the disabled under the bus.  Don't bother if you are looking for support in this one!  It is kind of like Darth Vator in Star Wars III.  A new body is made out of a broken one.  Not much help for me.

4.  Magic at Belle Island was a dear story.  Not many insights but I liked it.

5.  The Other Side of the Mountain 2 was a good movie.  It touched on many issues.

Where I am going with all of this is the medical articles are good for the definitions and the physical.  That is all interesting.  But there is more to discovering a disability than that.  There is an innate need and concern that has nothing to do with the head knowledge part.  There is the connection with others and the need of acceptance.  It is the part that concerns who we are and how we feel and relate to others, our emotions. Do you love me and can I love you?  

Movies help with understanding the part of a person that longs to connect and be connectable.

I invite you to add to this list.  I will also report if I find good movies.  Let's keep eachother informed!

Top 20 Disability, Paraplegic at the Movies

Does Obama Care? Neurogenic Bladder

 In light of the supreme court’s decision, I thought I would throw out my two cents. There has been a lot of emphasis, in the news regarding people with pre-existing medical conditions. I fall into that category with my neurogenic  bladder and bowel. I am relieved that I will never be denied health insurance through no fault of my own.

Yet I hear whisperings and grumblings;

1. In 2014, all Medical professionals will need to have electronic charts. Our medical information will be easy to access and the people taking care of us will have someone looking over their shoulder. How easy will it be for others to access my very personal medical history? The juicy details once my chart is hacked!

2. In 2014, there will be a prescribed cookie cutter protocol for medical conditions. So that means when I go in for a bladder infection there will be a procedure already in place for me. It will not be individually based. There will be a consequence to the physician, if the protocol is not followed. A huge fine will incur, if he/she deviates. What blows my mind is if the doctor repeats the infraction, jail time is the threatened consequence.

3. How long will we need to wait for needed medical care? Will the medically fragile need to take a number and get in line? How long will that line be? Sure we will have insurance, but will we get the needed care or be written off and be given the option to be kept comfortable?

Even before the issue of Obama Care, I let my mind wander to my medical needs as I age. We are all so unique and how we are treated is so complex. As I age, will I be treated different than a younger person? We all know the answer to that. The knowledge of the answer gives me a chill. I am a bit venerable and high risk. What will happen after I turn seventy? Will the new "JUST KEEP HEALTHY" theme the proponents are singing, take care of me, with my existing condition?

I know for a fact that now, I will get that insurance, but how complete will my future healthcare be?

The Lesson of Sea Glass and a Neurogenic Bladder


Last Saturday was my birthday.   My daughters whisked me off to an island near our home for a day of looking for sea glass and wine tasting.   Throughout the day I marveled at how God could work in my life.  I actually made it  through  bringing up two wildly outrageous and difficult daughters, and then have lived long enough to see the other side.    They designed such a perfect day.

Sea glass is a treasure to me; it is such an interesting hobby.    I have several old glass milk bottles and add my little bits as I can.   It is in my opinion, the ultimate repurpose.  What was once garbage, thirty years plus ago has become a treasure beyond measure.   There is a sea glass museum in California on Highway 1 near Fort Bragg, books on the topic, and nutty collectors like me that go nuts over a little pea shaped pieces of glass.   If an orange or grey piece is found then just faint, I’ve hit the mother lode. 

When I developed my symptoms due to my neurogenic bladder, from God knows what, later in life, I felt so broken.  All of a sudden I have this huge obstacle in my life that quite frankly I do not discuss openly.   It is like a plate shattering on the floor and telling the kids, “Stay away, get your shoes on and bring me the broom.  This needs to be swept up and thrown away."

Yet isn't a situational set back a bit like sea glass?  Like a cobalt blue medicine bottle – thought it was all that and more before it was used and thrown in the trash heap.  But guess what I found?   Between my toes there sat a cobalt blue pebble.  Happy Birthday, thank you.  Made my day!

Sounds a bit like that ole, beauty out of ashes thing, isn't life just like that! Just when you think you have it figured out…..

Go Girl

Have you ever heard of a woman’s product called Go Girl?  I want to tell you about it,  but let me share this with you ….

When I told my mother,  I had a neurogenic bladder and needed a catheter to pee, she was so upset  she cried.   To be honest by the time I gave her my newest medical information, I was so used to the idea and so very happy, that I was comfortable and pain free, it was hard to wrap my mind around her tears.  It is so very simple to self-cath that I was wondering how I could have made my news a little easier for her to hear.  Another time, I had to go to the hospital for a procedure and I needed to tell the nurse, that I kind of knew (because our boys played sports together) that I had a neurogenic  bladder.  She got all emotional and teary as well. I was not sure how to handle either of these situations. Now I have a great idea for when I have to break the news to some unsuspecting person….. Just wait, this is good….

I was out shopping for my Bunko gifts last Sunday, after church, at a luggage store.   I came across an interesting product.  It is a pink, soft, rubbery, kitchen shaped funnel, that is collapsed,( so you  could fit it between your legs.)  This apparatus is for women to pee in,  so that they can direct the flow of their pee.  Say you are in a boat, and you have to pee and the water is just too cold for a swim or perhaps you are at a rock concert and you do not want to sit on a strange dirty toilet seat.   This product is for women not lucky enough to have an insurance company pay for the real deal, female urinary catheters, like me.  The Go Girl is the best second choice.

Now this is my point.  If you feel like my life is so bad because I need to cath to pee you need to realize that there are amazing benefits as well. I could carry around these GO GIRL devices and let these Nay-sayers experience the freedom I experience on a daily basis.

The Benefits of using a woman’s urinal catheter;

1.  I can easily stand to pee.

2.  I do not need to sit in a strange porta potty.

3.  Since I have bladder retention I can go quite a while before I need to pee.  I am kind of like a camel.  How convenient!

4.  There is some dryness women my age get, yet when I cath I get a little lubrication which is a good thing.

So I can have some samples and say, “If you want to experience the wonderful freedom of standing to pee, not needing to squat, go out and get a GO GIRL.”   I should buy some to give as gifts.  I don’t want to be the only lucky girl on the block.  Perhaps if they experienced the freedom I have, they will not cry.

Being happy does not mean you are perfect.  It just means you desire to look beyond imperfections.

The product, Go Girl


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